Writer's Block

In the bed, gazing at the ceiling, I wonder what I'm going to do for the day. I toss and turn, but cannot put my finger on something productive. I then begin to float away into my own thoughts remembering I am not in the place I have always pictured myself in. Instead of seeing the beauty and potential I have, I give up and begin to question if this is really my calling. I doubt myself before I try. I allow this writer's block to consume me in more ways then one. Changing my major and refusing to blog goes through my head like a train track. Giving up is easier than fighting.

I know people experience obstacles in life causing them to become sidetracked. We all must set goals and work on them. Allowing these obstacles to take over our minds will only limit the world of our greatness. With this being said, I am now updating my blog starting with this entry. I will not allow writer's block to get the best of me. I know that God has given me this gift for a reason and I will use it. So if you feel like giving up like I have, keep going. God has a purpose for us all. Writer's block get out of my way, I'm ready to write. Where's my glitter pen?

R.I.P. KEON

I received devastating news when i was notified that my friend Keon was shot and killed in front of his home by a 14 year old. When the words, "Keon's dead" came out of my neighbors mouth, my heart sank from disbelief and hurt. I could not believe that he was gone by the hands of another person. He was about to graduate, which is something a lot of young men do not accomplish.

I know all things happen for a reason, but it still doesn't take away the agony, torment, and heartache. My tears fall constantly leaving streams of pain on my face. As I try to wipe them away, they find a way to creep out of my eyes again. No matter how much Kleenex I use, there will never be enough to make this all go away. I can try to sleep it off and stay busy, but the thoughts of Keon bothering me and trying to hug me slide across my mind like slideshows, leaving me with a smile through the tears I face at night.

It makes no since how someone can take another man's life. Everyone deserves to live. God only has the right to take someone's life. As other people are going on with their lives, I will sit here and continuously think about my little friend, who will not be walking across the stage to receive his diploma. Keon, you will be greatly missed and never forgotten. May God be with your family as well as me during this trying time. Rest in Peace, hun!!!